kii said:

I swear I am my own worst hazard.

Found a power board, it’s white. Now I need to get two extension leads, get white says my brain, to match the power board. Lorelie is black, black like the void, black like the moonless night.

Brain says, get black power board and leads. To match Lorelie.

Now I am looping back over ALL of my previous mistakes (how I perceived these choices) that I made when we renovated the house and mr kii got me to choose colours for fittings and ALL THE THINGS.

I feel nauseous.

Getting stuck in one of those thought loops is tough.