Seems to have become a “given” in my self-narrative over the past couple years that I’m not going to last much longer.

Which at the age of 60, is realistic enough. But I’m entering the realm where the difference between reaching 80 and reaching 65 can be dependent on the fine tuning of what’s going on, and how I cope with it.

Having to move three times in the last two years knocked a lot out of me, and reminded me that the future is not secured. Combined with faltering enthusiasm, unresolved regrets and sorrows, and the likelihood of increasing health problems, gloom and doom often shove everything else out of my vision.

I remember coming across a little book my Mum was writing in, not long after my Dad’s death. She predicted her own imminent demise and various concerns about us “kids”. Feel very shameful now that I ascribed this to her usual melodramatics, as she was dead within the year, aged 64.

There are a number of forumites around my age posting here, and I’m wondering if this sense of impending doom is common to us all.

Bubblecar said:

Seems to have become a “given” in my self-narrative over the past couple years that I’m not going to last much longer.

Which at the age of 60, is realistic enough. But I’m entering the realm where the difference between reaching 80 and reaching 65 can be dependent on the fine tuning of what’s going on, and how I cope with it.

Having to move three times in the last two years knocked a lot out of me, and reminded me that the future is not secured. Combined with faltering enthusiasm, unresolved regrets and sorrows, and the likelihood of increasing health problems, gloom and doom often shove everything else out of my vision.

I remember coming across a little book my Mum was writing in, not long after my Dad’s death. She predicted her own imminent demise and various concerns about us “kids”. Feel very shameful now that I ascribed this to her usual melodramatics, as she was dead within the year, aged 64.

There are a number of forumites around my age posting here, and I’m wondering if this sense of impending doom is common to us all.

And you run, and you run to catch up with the sun, but it’s sinking
Racing around to come up behind you again
The sun is the same in a relative way, but you’re older
Shorter of breath, and one day closer to death
Every year is gettin’ shorter, never seem to find the time
Plans that either come to naught or half a page of scribbled lines
Hangin’ on in quiet desperation is the English way
The time is gone, the song is over, thought I’d somethin’ more to say..

roughbarked said:

Bubblecar said:

Seems to have become a “given” in my self-narrative over the past couple years that I’m not going to last much longer.

Which at the age of 60, is realistic enough. But I’m entering the realm where the difference between reaching 80 and reaching 65 can be dependent on the fine tuning of what’s going on, and how I cope with it.

Having to move three times in the last two years knocked a lot out of me, and reminded me that the future is not secured. Combined with faltering enthusiasm, unresolved regrets and sorrows, and the likelihood of increasing health problems, gloom and doom often shove everything else out of my vision.

I remember coming across a little book my Mum was writing in, not long after my Dad’s death. She predicted her own imminent demise and various concerns about us “kids”. Feel very shameful now that I ascribed this to her usual melodramatics, as she was dead within the year, aged 64.

There are a number of forumites around my age posting here, and I’m wondering if this sense of impending doom is common to us all.

And you run, and you run to catch up with the sun, but it’s sinking
Racing around to come up behind you again
The sun is the same in a relative way, but you’re older
Shorter of breath, and one day closer to death
Every year is gettin’ shorter, never seem to find the time
Plans that either come to naught or half a page of scribbled lines
Hangin’ on in quiet desperation is the English way
The time is gone, the song is over, thought I’d somethin’ more to say..

My closest friends say, they always see me in this song; Time~Pink Floyd

What I really need at this stage of the proceedings is my own place in the middle of nowhere, where Death and I can laugh at each other on equal terms.

Where I can sing as loud as I like and not have to whisper into the microphone because I’ve just bellowed at the far-too-close neighbours about their barking dogs and other intrusions.

Where I don’t have to worry about an estate agent creeping in every few months to take photographs of every room to send to the owner of the house.

I’m only partly here, ever. If I’m not free now, the prospect of freedom is not looking feasible.

Bubblecar said:

What I really need at this stage of the proceedings is my own place in the middle of nowhere, where Death and I can laugh at each other on equal terms.

Where I can sing as loud as I like and not have to whisper into the microphone because I’ve just bellowed at the far-too-close neighbours about their barking dogs and other intrusions.

Where I don’t have to worry about an estate agent creeping in every few months to take photographs of every room to send to the owner of the house.

I’m only partly here, ever. If I’m not free now, the prospect of freedom is not looking feasible.

Why do you think I live out in the bush and have my own cave in the desert?

I don’t have any money but I own the roof over my head and the freehold on tye land title.

Yes.

The morning I woke up and realised I was the same age as my mother when my father died.

With mr kii’s cancer issues, the state of this shithole country and my distance from my home country….I feel very doomed.
Daisy’s death has added another layer of doom, finality. She was my friend and we had a close bond.

Not sure what the answer is for me.

roughbarked said:

I don’t have any money but I own the roof over my head and the freehold on tye land title.

enough is enough

Bubblecar said:

Seems to have become a “given” in my self-narrative over the past couple years that I’m not going to last much longer.

Which at the age of 60, is realistic enough. But I’m entering the realm where the difference between reaching 80 and reaching 65 can be dependent on the fine tuning of what’s going on, and how I cope with it.

Having to move three times in the last two years knocked a lot out of me, and reminded me that the future is not secured. Combined with faltering enthusiasm, unresolved regrets and sorrows, and the likelihood of increasing health problems, gloom and doom often shove everything else out of my vision.

I remember coming across a little book my Mum was writing in, not long after my Dad’s death. She predicted her own imminent demise and various concerns about us “kids”. Feel very shameful now that I ascribed this to her usual melodramatics, as she was dead within the year, aged 64.

There are a number of forumites around my age posting here, and I’m wondering if this sense of impending doom is common to us all.

Such thoughts cross my mind from time to time, but I move on to something else.

To quote my favourite hippy philosopher:

“Why do we talk of go and stay (of go and stay)?
We will all be here ‘til here is there.”

Bubblecar said:

There are a number of forumites around my age posting here, and I’m wondering if this sense of impending doom is common to us all.

Well, I’m not 60+.

Stumpy once said to me that this forum seems to be a magnet for the unhinged. A lot of us are, or have, suffered various mental conditions. Depression seems to be a common one. Whilst my own self-narrative doesn’t usually involve my own demise, I do wonder about the chances of me having a heart attack or dying in a car crash or some other incident. Last weekend, a footballer’s wife died after a heart attack: she was my age and seemed fit and healthy. Six months ago, a friend younger than I (and much more fit and healthier than I) landed herself in ICU for a few weeks due to sudden blood clots in her lungs and heart. Shit happens, and it’s scary.

One of the symptoms of a heart attack is “a sense of impending doom” and I believe sibeen has mentioned he felt it. I assume this is different to what Bubblecar is feeling; sibeen felt something bad was imminent while Car feels he has some years left.

Depression can manifest itself in varying thoughts: everything from “why bother?” To “meh, who cares?” And even to “well, we’re all gonna die one day”. And we will all die one day. Is this manifest more in people in their senior years? Probably, but I’m not expert in psychology.

Any one of us can die at any moment. An accident in our own homes. A car accident. A sudden and catastrophic health issue. A random meteorite as we mow our lawn. Bacteria laden deli foods.

Just remember to leave your forum password to a loved one so they’ll log in and inform us of your demise. It’s only polite.

Divine Angel said:

Bubblecar said:

There are a number of forumites around my age posting here, and I’m wondering if this sense of impending doom is common to us all.

Well, I’m not 60+.

Stumpy once said to me that this forum seems to be a magnet for the unhinged. A lot of us are, or have, suffered various mental conditions. Depression seems to be a common one. Whilst my own self-narrative doesn’t usually involve my own demise, I do wonder about the chances of me having a heart attack or dying in a car crash or some other incident. Last weekend, a footballer’s wife died after a heart attack: she was my age and seemed fit and healthy. Six months ago, a friend younger than I (and much more fit and healthier than I) landed herself in ICU for a few weeks due to sudden blood clots in her lungs and heart. Shit happens, and it’s scary.

One of the symptoms of a heart attack is “a sense of impending doom” and I believe sibeen has mentioned he felt it. I assume this is different to what Bubblecar is feeling; sibeen felt something bad was imminent while Car feels he has some years left.

Depression can manifest itself in varying thoughts: everything from “why bother?” To “meh, who cares?” And even to “well, we’re all gonna die one day”. And we will all die one day. Is this manifest more in people in their senior years? Probably, but I’m not expert in psychology.

Any one of us can die at any moment. An accident in our own homes. A car accident. A sudden and catastrophic health issue. A random meteorite as we mow our lawn. Bacteria laden deli foods.

Just remember to leave your forum password to a loved one so they’ll log in and inform us of your demise. It’s only polite.

Good to see your focus on the important things DA :)

(seriously)

Divine Angel said:

Just remember to leave your forum password to a loved one so they’ll log in and inform us of your demise. It’s only polite.

nah.

Nice in a way to know what you may experience. After living on oxygen and with extreme breathlessness it has focussed my mind on a future I can tolerate. A lung tranplant maybe not possible for many reasons and until recently one of them was reluctance but given the alternative reluctance has been removed from the table. Looks more and more like a flat on the good coast in the sunshine may be for me. Got something to read and phone in food I could do worse.

Divine Angel said:

One of the symptoms of a heart attack is “a sense of impending doom” and I believe sibeen has mentioned he felt it. I assume this is different to what Bubblecar is feeling; sibeen felt something bad was imminent while Car feels he has some years left.

Nup, no, neh. I felt nothing. I was doing the dishes when it first came on, and believe me, if I’d felt ‘impending doom’ the dishes would have been about last on the list.

I never really thought about my demise all that much before the attack. Since then it pops into my head on a more regular basis but having already done it once a repeat performance doesn’t bother me all that much.

sibeen said:

Divine Angel said:

One of the symptoms of a heart attack is “a sense of impending doom” and I believe sibeen has mentioned he felt it. I assume this is different to what Bubblecar is feeling; sibeen felt something bad was imminent while Car feels he has some years left.

Nup, no, neh. I felt nothing. I was doing the dishes when it first came on, and believe me, if I’d felt ‘impending doom’ the dishes would have been about last on the list.

I never really thought about my demise all that much before the attack. Since then it pops into my head on a more regular basis but having already done it once a repeat performance doesn’t bother me all that much.

as long as you go when i am visiting melbourne, i don’t want to make a special trip.

Was me. I had the sense of impending doom.

Your description above seems from a low mood, Car. Is it possible you’re just a bit depressed?

Rule 303 said:

Was me. I had the sense of impending doom.

Rule, sibeen, same thing.

Divine Angel said:

Rule 303 said:

Was me. I had the sense of impending doom.

Rule, sibeen, same thing.

Oi!

Sibeen has feelings, y’know.

Mark me down for doom. I don’t think I am going to live a long time. I don’t think I will be leaving the planet in a better place. I taste suicidal thoughts often. I won’t act on them. I just feel miserable and a burden.

Quotes Eagles: ‘She never thought she’d be alone this far down the line.’ My passing won’t be shattering.

I’ll cheer up on Sunday.

sarahs mum said:

Mark me down for doom. I don’t think I am going to live a long time. I don’t think I will be leaving the planet in a better place. I taste suicidal thoughts often. I won’t act on them. I just feel miserable and a burden.

Quotes Eagles: ‘She never thought she’d be alone this far down the line.’ My passing won’t be shattering.

Shit, you live in my head.

We could always make your passing shattering…..we have the resources and skills in this forum to do shattering ;) :P

sarahs mum said:

Mark me down for doom. I don’t think I am going to live a long time. I don’t think I will be leaving the planet in a better place. I taste suicidal thoughts often. I won’t act on them. I just feel miserable and a burden.

Quotes Eagles: ‘She never thought she’d be alone this far down the line.’ My passing won’t be shattering.

At least you have your own little patch of the universe.

Rule 303 said:

Was me. I had the sense of impending doom.

Your description above seems from a low mood, Car. Is it possible you’re just a bit depressed?

I can’t actually afford to be depressed, it’s a luxury :)

When you have an estate agent coming in every few months to take photographs, in a way it’s like a psychiatric assessment. If you fail, you could be homeless after the lease runs out. But there’s no guarantee that you won’t be anyway.

The Dart Throwers outlook is for a warmer than average winter, they haven’t got off to a good start.
I reckon they may be using cheap Chinese darts in some mad cost cutting drive.

Bubblecar said:

Rule 303 said:

Was me. I had the sense of impending doom.

Your description above seems from a low mood, Car. Is it possible you’re just a bit depressed?

I can’t actually afford to be depressed, it’s a luxury :)

When you have an estate agent coming in every few months to take photographs, in a way it’s like a psychiatric assessment. If you fail, you could be homeless after the lease runs out. But there’s no guarantee that you won’t be anyway.

Having monthly reminders of a Damoclean sword would be no fun. You could start your next new life, a traupador of the internet’s, swopping flute medleys and home cooked dinners for a nights accomodation then cycle into the sun rise gay as a French pirate.

Peak Warming Man said:

The Dart Throwers outlook is for a warmer than average winter, they haven’t got off to a good start.
I reckon they may be using cheap Chinese darts in some mad cost cutting drive.

PWM has moved this missive to the Chat thread where it was intended to go.
It was a genuine error that a person of any age could make and PWM’s legal team will vigorously defend any views expressed to the contrary, implied or real.

Good Day.

A sense of impending doom  is an actual medical symptom for some very serious conditions.

Have you been swimming in irukandji infested seas, eating too much nutmeg..?

sarahs mum said:

Mark me down for doom. I don’t think I am going to live a long time. I don’t think I will be leaving the planet in a better place. I taste suicidal thoughts often. I won’t act on them. I just feel miserable and a burden.

Quotes Eagles: ‘She never thought she’d be alone this far down the line.’ My passing won’t be shattering.

:(

:(

:(

AwesomeO said:

Bubblecar said:

Rule 303 said:

Was me. I had the sense of impending doom.

Your description above seems from a low mood, Car. Is it possible you’re just a bit depressed?

I can’t actually afford to be depressed, it’s a luxury :)

When you have an estate agent coming in every few months to take photographs, in a way it’s like a psychiatric assessment. If you fail, you could be homeless after the lease runs out. But there’s no guarantee that you won’t be anyway.

Having monthly reminders of a Damoclean sword would be no fun. You could start your next new life, a traupador of the internet’s, swopping flute medleys and home cooked dinners for a nights accomodation then cycle into the sun rise gay as a French pirate.

I’m a fat old homebody, not a footloose young adventurer :)

AwesomeO said:

Nice in a way to know what you may experience. After living on oxygen and with extreme breathlessness it has focussed my mind on a future I can tolerate. A lung tranplant maybe not possible for many reasons and until recently one of them was reluctance but given the alternative reluctance has been removed from the table. Looks more and more like a flat on the good coast in the sunshine may be for me. Got something to read and phone in food I could do worse.

Yep. Acceptance is good.

Peak Warming Man said:

Peak Warming Man said:

The Dart Throwers outlook is for a warmer than average winter, they haven’t got off to a good start.
I reckon they may be using cheap Chinese darts in some mad cost cutting drive.

PWM has moved this missive to the Chat thread where it was intended to go.
It was a genuine error that a person of any age could make and PWM’s legal team will vigorously defend any views expressed to the contrary, implied or real.

Good Day.

You’ll be getting a letter from my lawyer in the mail.

Bubblecar said:

Seems to have become a “given” in my self-narrative over the past couple years that I’m not going to last much longer.

Which at the age of 60, is realistic enough. But I’m entering the realm where the difference between reaching 80 and reaching 65 can be dependent on the fine tuning of what’s going on, and how I cope with it.

Having to move three times in the last two years knocked a lot out of me, and reminded me that the future is not secured. Combined with faltering enthusiasm, unresolved regrets and sorrows, and the likelihood of increasing health problems, gloom and doom often shove everything else out of my vision.

I remember coming across a little book my Mum was writing in, not long after my Dad’s death. She predicted her own imminent demise and various concerns about us “kids”. Feel very shameful now that I ascribed this to her usual melodramatics, as she was dead within the year, aged 64.

There are a number of forumites around my age posting here, and I’m wondering if this sense of impending doom is common to us all.

Personally I am not surprised you have these thoughts and feelings. You have skills but hardly use them, probably through lack of motivation. You lock yourself up in the house not for days, but for years. You have imprisoned yourself and see no way of escape due to your financial position.

Okay, but what have you got? You have intelligence and bodily movement, just skip the skills you have little motivation to use. So you must do something else, but due to your lack of transport it is difficult for you to get out and you don’t own the garden so cannot grow plants. So what can you do to reinvigorate your motivation and largely do within your home environs? How about writing a blog, this is a long term project that takes a considerable amount of research, and being different to what you are currently doing, would stimulate your interest in life.

Another thing you could do is a historical record of where you live and/or your part of Tasmania. Get a small pet, even a goldfish, or build an aquarium even without fish. All these things can lead to bigger things and a more fulfilling future.

Nah….Bubblecar uses his many exceptional skills. I am the one with no motivation to use and/or develop skills.

kii said:

Nah….Bubblecar uses his many exceptional skills. I am the one with no motivation to use and/or develop skills.

My art and music continually progress, rather slowly, but I’ve had lots of interruptions over the past couple years. I haven’t had a whole year in one place since leaving the old cottage.

I’m easily stressed and it takes a toll. But hopefully I’ll be able to achieve a more prolonged immersion in work now.

And hopefully kii will too :)

kii said:

Nah….Bubblecar uses his many exceptional skills. I am the one with no motivation to use and/or develop skills.

I think he is bored with the life he is living and desperately needs a change, which is difficult due his lack of control over it.

Anyway, make of it what do will.

Bubblecar said:

kii said:

Nah….Bubblecar uses his many exceptional skills. I am the one with no motivation to use and/or develop skills.

My art and music continually progress, rather slowly, but I’ve had lots of interruptions over the past couple years. I haven’t had a whole year in one place since leaving the old cottage.

I’m easily stressed and it takes a toll. But hopefully I’ll be able to achieve a more prolonged immersion in work now.

And hopefully kii will too :)

If you were stimulated by your art and music, you would not be saying the things that you are.

Bubblecar said:

kii said:

Nah….Bubblecar uses his many exceptional skills. I am the one with no motivation to use and/or develop skills.

My art and music continually progress, rather slowly, but I’ve had lots of interruptions over the past couple years. I haven’t had a whole year in one place since leaving the old cottage.

I’m easily stressed and it takes a toll. But hopefully I’ll be able to achieve a more prolonged immersion in work now.

And hopefully kii will too :)

I keep trying. Get knocked down. Stand up. Keep moving.
Keeping Gracie company outside is making me do more garden pottering, it’d be easier if there was actually soil instead of fine silty dust.

PermeateFree said:

Bubblecar said:

kii said:

Nah….Bubblecar uses his many exceptional skills. I am the one with no motivation to use and/or develop skills.

My art and music continually progress, rather slowly, but I’ve had lots of interruptions over the past couple years. I haven’t had a whole year in one place since leaving the old cottage.

I’m easily stressed and it takes a toll. But hopefully I’ll be able to achieve a more prolonged immersion in work now.

And hopefully kii will too :)

If you were stimulated by your art and music, you would not be saying the things that you are.

I am stimulated by my art and music, I can assure you.

Bubblecar said:

PermeateFree said:

Bubblecar said:

My art and music continually progress, rather slowly, but I’ve had lots of interruptions over the past couple years. I haven’t had a whole year in one place since leaving the old cottage.

I’m easily stressed and it takes a toll. But hopefully I’ll be able to achieve a more prolonged immersion in work now.

And hopefully kii will too :)

If you were stimulated by your art and music, you would not be saying the things that you are.

I am stimulated by my art and music, I can assure you.

I’ll leave you to your miserable thoughts then.

First dog tries to cheer us up

https://www.theguardian.com/commentisfree/2019/may/31/what-was-the-honestly-best-moment-of-your-life-not-including-babies-or-that-weirdy-you-married

sarahs mum said:

First dog tries to cheer us up

https://www.theguardian.com/commentisfree/2019/may/31/what-was-the-honestly-best-moment-of-your-life-not-including-babies-or-that-weirdy-you-married

:)

kii said:

Yes.

The morning I woke up and realised I was the same age as my mother when my father died.

With mr kii’s cancer issues, the state of this shithole country and my distance from my home country….I feel very doomed.
Daisy’s death has added another layer of doom, finality. She was my friend and we had a close bond.

Not sure what the answer is for me.

Yes and no.

Some days i have a sense of impending doom, i’m 8 years off the age that my father died.

Weirdly, the sense of doom came full force a few days ago when switching medications. From maximum allowable ibuprofen back to anti-depressants (that i’ve been off for several weeks).

none here. I’m still 30 years shy of the age when my parents died. that’ll please sibeen.

ChrispenEvan said:

none here. I’m still 30 years shy of the age when my parents died. that’ll please sibeen.

OVER. THE. FUCKING. MOON.

sibeen said:

ChrispenEvan said:

none here. I’m still 30 years shy of the age when my parents died. that’ll please sibeen.

OVER. THE. FUCKING. MOON.

look on the bright side, neither of us will remember that i’ve told that joke a dozen times before when we have dementia. they’ll be new each time. oh how we will laugh. good times.

I am older than my father when he died.

ChrispenEvan said:

sibeen said:

ChrispenEvan said:

none here. I’m still 30 years shy of the age when my parents died. that’ll please sibeen.

OVER. THE. FUCKING. MOON.

look on the bright side, neither of us will remember that i’ve told that joke a dozen times before when we have dementia. they’ll be new each time. oh how we will laugh. good times.

We’re trying to make jokes about dementia, but it’s hard. ADHD and dementia….woot!

ChrispenEvan said:

none here. I’m still 30 years shy of the age when my parents died. that’ll please sibeen.

tou are only 270 years old?

sarahs mum said:

I am older than my father when he died.

I’m not quite there yet. In three years I will be.

Symptomatic of mental illness. Self-confessed alcoholism, depression. Has nil occupation and apparently this has been the case for some time. Hangs around “science forums” even though he demonstrates little to negative understanding of scientific method. Recommend a psychiatrist.

Duck said:

Symptomatic of mental illness. Self-confessed alcoholism, depression. Has nil occupation and apparently this has been the case for some time. Hangs around “science forums” even though he demonstrates little to negative understanding of scientific method. Recommend a psychiatrist.

my T & P are with you T_O

Kickstarter > Fund Bubblecars last years.

look after you heart, kidneys and liver and you’ll be just fine

2 weeks ago i watched someone die over 7 days, monday relatively lucid, tuesday rambling and delusional, scared and frightened (he’d been in hospital for a week before i found out) and i calmed him down. from wednesday he was under morphine until lights out just after i arrived at work. i was in two minds whether i should visit him in that state or just remember him as he was. after second thoughts i went back to his room, i was the most consistent visitor for the last 7 days so i thought i might as bid him adieu. i sat down had a think then played him stars and stripes forever a rousing piece of send off music, saluted him, wished him well on his next journey and departed.

you keep knocking back the booze , keep ignoring the signs, keep doing the wrong thing and its certain you’ll face your doom.

as i said, keep your heart, liver and kidneys fine and you’ll be fine.

wookiemeister said:

look after you heart, kidneys and liver and you’ll be just fine

2 weeks ago i watched someone die over 7 days, monday relatively lucid, tuesday rambling and delusional, scared and frightened (he’d been in hospital for a week before i found out) and i calmed him down. from wednesday he was under morphine until lights out just after i arrived at work. i was in two minds whether i should visit him in that state or just remember him as he was. after second thoughts i went back to his room, i was the most consistent visitor for the last 7 days so i thought i might as bid him adieu. i sat down had a think then played him stars and stripes forever a rousing piece of send off music, saluted him, wished him well on his next journey and departed.

you keep knocking back the booze , keep ignoring the signs, keep doing the wrong thing and its certain you’ll face your doom.

as i said, keep your heart, liver and kidneys fine and you’ll be fine.

Nah, you’ll still die.

sibeen said:

wookiemeister said:

look after you heart, kidneys and liver and you’ll be just fine

2 weeks ago i watched someone die over 7 days, monday relatively lucid, tuesday rambling and delusional, scared and frightened (he’d been in hospital for a week before i found out) and i calmed him down. from wednesday he was under morphine until lights out just after i arrived at work. i was in two minds whether i should visit him in that state or just remember him as he was. after second thoughts i went back to his room, i was the most consistent visitor for the last 7 days so i thought i might as bid him adieu. i sat down had a think then played him stars and stripes forever a rousing piece of send off music, saluted him, wished him well on his next journey and departed.

you keep knocking back the booze , keep ignoring the signs, keep doing the wrong thing and its certain you’ll face your doom.

as i said, keep your heart, liver and kidneys fine and you’ll be fine.

Nah, you’ll still die.

but how and when

keep ignoring the signs – thats the human psyche

ps

theres nothing on the side – i’ve been there

i think you’ve been there as well , from what i remember

wookiemeister said:

ps

theres nothing on the side – i’ve been there

Wookie, you’re spouting to the wrong bloke. I have been there. Nada.

sibeen said:

wookiemeister said:

ps

theres nothing on the side – i’ve been there

Wookie, you’re spouting to the wrong bloke. I have been there. Nada.

i’m aware

you just go out like a light – right?

wookiemeister said:

sibeen said:

wookiemeister said:

ps

theres nothing on the side – i’ve been there

Wookie, you’re spouting to the wrong bloke. I have been there. Nada.

i’m aware

you just go out like a light – right?

Correct. Or at least I did. I really cannot talk for all dead people :)

sibeen said:

wookiemeister said:

sibeen said:

Wookie, you’re spouting to the wrong bloke. I have been there. Nada.

i’m aware

you just go out like a light – right?

Correct. Or at least I did. I really cannot talk for all dead people :)

you on pills, pre emptive medication, exercise, diet ?

sibeen said:

wookiemeister said:

sibeen said:

Wookie, you’re spouting to the wrong bloke. I have been there. Nada.

i’m aware

you just go out like a light – right?

Correct. Or at least I did. I really cannot talk for all dead people :)

there wasn’t even a bit of an after glow, like you get with some globes?

Well, I suppose personal doom makes a pleasant change from global doom. It was only is 2009 that I gave up on the imminent prospect of nuclear war. And world economic meltdown with regression to the stone age seems further away now than it was in 2008.

But which personal doom?

• Death
• Physical paralysis, such as following a stroke
• Dementia / Alzheimers
• Endless pain

When i was young, it was endless pain that frightened my most. Now I’m almost there, pain of some form about half the time.

mollwollfumble said:

Well, I suppose personal doom makes a pleasant change from global doom. It was only is 2009 that I gave up on the imminent prospect of nuclear war. And world economic meltdown with regression to the stone age seems further away now than it was in 2008.

But which personal doom?

• Death
• Physical paralysis, such as following a stroke
• Dementia / Alzheimers
• Endless pain

When i was young, it was endless pain that frightened my most. Now I’m almost there, pain of some form about half the time.

They say homeopathy cures all.

PermeateFree said:

mollwollfumble said:

Well, I suppose personal doom makes a pleasant change from global doom. It was only is 2009 that I gave up on the imminent prospect of nuclear war. And world economic meltdown with regression to the stone age seems further away now than it was in 2008.

But which personal doom?

• Death
• Physical paralysis, such as following a stroke
• Dementia / Alzheimers
• Endless pain

When i was young, it was endless pain that frightened my most. Now I’m almost there, pain of some form about half the time.

They say homeopathy cures all.

But this is better

https://i.imgur.com/YyTLZyq.mp4

mollwollfumble

Tony Attwood, Ph.D.

https://www.anxiety.org/autism-spectrum-disorder-anxiety-strategies

Attwood has a pretty good handle on the Asperger’s, it’s just a little unfortunate he cannot control his Histrionic personality disorder.

The originator of this thread should also mention to his GP when getting a referral to a psychiatrist that Histrionic personality disorder is also suspected (sub type unknown).

I don’t have doom

I prolong my physical fitness best I can (muscle, bone and mental strength) to keep things like doom away.

this requires adrenaline, which isn’t quite in ready supply as it once was, but i’ve still got it, the kick arse chemistry.

i’m fairly constantly in a sort of imaginative combat, with my self, it’s extreme. Working imagination, serving the necessities of my existence, as if my life depended on it.

i’m not fucken dead yet

For DA

https://www.buzzfeednews.com/article/tanyachen/chinese-retailer-ali-express-surprised-midwestern-mom-with

ChrispenEvan said:

For DA

https://www.buzzfeednews.com/article/tanyachen/chinese-retailer-ali-express-surprised-midwestern-mom-with

Oh dear!

Bubblecar said:

Seems to have become a “given” in my self-narrative over the past couple years that I’m not going to last much longer.

Which at the age of 60, is realistic enough. But I’m entering the realm where the difference between reaching 80 and reaching 65 can be dependent on the fine tuning of what’s going on, and how I cope with it.

Having to move three times in the last two years knocked a lot out of me, and reminded me that the future is not secured. Combined with faltering enthusiasm, unresolved regrets and sorrows, and the likelihood of increasing health problems, gloom and doom often shove everything else out of my vision.

I remember coming across a little book my Mum was writing in, not long after my Dad’s death. She predicted her own imminent demise and various concerns about us “kids”. Feel very shameful now that I ascribed this to her usual melodramatics, as she was dead within the year, aged 64.

There are a number of forumites around my age posting here, and I’m wondering if this sense of impending doom is common to us all.

“her usual melodramatics.”

HPD does appear to run in families. Get a ref to a psychiatrist, but do not use the public health system. I suspect diagnoses of HPD will be confirmed. Then you will need to go to a clinical psychologist. Good luck.

Duck said:

… do not use the public health system.

I regret that i have to agree with this.

Not because the public system isn’t good, and doesn’t have good people working in it, but because they just don’t have time to deal with such matters.

Whenever a drug-addiction case arrives in a hospital, it’s immediately classed as a ‘mental health’ issue, and referred to the mental health facilities. So, those facilities are choked with drug addicts. Mental health wards are not pleasant places to be.

Add to that workload the people with really severe mental conditions, and it means that unless you’re seeing things, hearing voices, or at immediate risk of self-harm, they just can’t fit you in.

captain_spalding said:

Duck said:

… do not use the public health system.

I regret that i have to agree with this.

Not because the public system isn’t good, and doesn’t have good people working in it, but because they just don’t have time to deal with such matters.

Whenever a drug-addiction case arrives in a hospital, it’s immediately classed as a ‘mental health’ issue, and referred to the mental health facilities. So, those facilities are choked with drug addicts. Mental health wards are not pleasant places to be.

Add to that workload the people with really severe mental conditions, and it means that unless you’re seeing things, hearing voices, or at immediate risk of self-harm, they just can’t fit you in.

When son#1 was admitted to hospital for a mental health assessment, we waited in the ER corridor for ages, then some side room. The psych ward was full :(

Duck is a histrionic troll, ignore him.

I think Duck is a quack.

Bubblecar said:

Duck is a histrionic troll, ignore him.

Anosognosia (Lack of insight )

A psychologist will help you work through this.

kii said:

I think Duck is a quack.

LOL

Bubblecar said:

Duck is a histrionic troll, ignore him.

No, he’s a little green tank engine, whose real, name is ‘Montague’.

From “where’s wally” animated movie for kids.

“The temple of doom de doom doom”

Interesting thread…

To be honest, the primary reason I don’t frequent this place very much any more is because I was finding a lot of conversation here to be depressing, saw very little upside in my personal interactions and just didn’t see the forum having much of a future. In some ways this thread confirms that and I do worry about the cohort that relies on this place for a large proportion on the social interactions.

That aside, I wish you all the very best for however long you are all kicking along and/or however long this place stays open.

diddly-squat said:

Interesting thread…

To be honest, the primary reason I don’t frequent this place very much any more is because I was finding a lot of conversation here to be depressing, saw very little upside in my personal interactions and just didn’t see the forum having much of a future. In some ways this thread confirms that and I do worry about the cohort that relies on this place for a large proportion on the social interactions.

That aside, I wish you all the very best for however long you are all kicking along and/or however long this place stays open.

It’s only bubblecar.. he drinks you know

I can’t say I look forward to old age, don’t even like being middle aged kind of makes me wistful for everything gone by, but if you go by my dad’s age he’s nearly 90 then I’ve got ages to go

Ian said:

diddly-squat said:

Interesting thread…

To be honest, the primary reason I don’t frequent this place very much any more is because I was finding a lot of conversation here to be depressing, saw very little upside in my personal interactions and just didn’t see the forum having much of a future. In some ways this thread confirms that and I do worry about the cohort that relies on this place for a large proportion on the social interactions.

That aside, I wish you all the very best for however long you are all kicking along and/or however long this place stays open.

It’s only bubblecar.. he drinks you know

I’m a cheery chap most of the time :)

Bubblecar said:

Ian said:

diddly-squat said:

Interesting thread…

To be honest, the primary reason I don’t frequent this place very much any more is because I was finding a lot of conversation here to be depressing, saw very little upside in my personal interactions and just didn’t see the forum having much of a future. In some ways this thread confirms that and I do worry about the cohort that relies on this place for a large proportion on the social interactions.

That aside, I wish you all the very best for however long you are all kicking along and/or however long this place stays open.

It’s only bubblecar.. he drinks you know

I’m a cheery chap most of the time :)

Well a good 50% of the time.

Bubblecar said:

Bubblecar said:

Ian said:

It’s only bubblecar.. he drinks you know

I’m a cheery chap most of the time :)

Well a good 50% of the time.

Doom de doom doom

Bubblecar said:

Seems to have become a “given” in my self-narrative over the past couple years that I’m not going to last much longer.

Which at the age of 60, is realistic enough. But I’m entering the realm where the difference between reaching 80 and reaching 65 can be dependent on the fine tuning of what’s going on, and how I cope with it.

Having to move three times in the last two years knocked a lot out of me, and reminded me that the future is not secured. Combined with faltering enthusiasm, unresolved regrets and sorrows, and the likelihood of increasing health problems, gloom and doom often shove everything else out of my vision.

I remember coming across a little book my Mum was writing in, not long after my Dad’s death. She predicted her own imminent demise and various concerns about us “kids”. Feel very shameful now that I ascribed this to her usual melodramatics, as she was dead within the year, aged 64.

There are a number of forumites around my age posting here, and I’m wondering if this sense of impending doom is common to us all.

I thought you were going to get a mail order bride and have them look after you? Or did I confuse you with someone else on the forum? :-)

monkey skipper said:

Bubblecar said:

Seems to have become a “given” in my self-narrative over the past couple years that I’m not going to last much longer.

Which at the age of 60, is realistic enough. But I’m entering the realm where the difference between reaching 80 and reaching 65 can be dependent on the fine tuning of what’s going on, and how I cope with it.

Having to move three times in the last two years knocked a lot out of me, and reminded me that the future is not secured. Combined with faltering enthusiasm, unresolved regrets and sorrows, and the likelihood of increasing health problems, gloom and doom often shove everything else out of my vision.

I remember coming across a little book my Mum was writing in, not long after my Dad’s death. She predicted her own imminent demise and various concerns about us “kids”. Feel very shameful now that I ascribed this to her usual melodramatics, as she was dead within the year, aged 64.

There are a number of forumites around my age posting here, and I’m wondering if this sense of impending doom is common to us all.

I thought you were going to get a mail order bride and have them look after you? Or did I confuse you with someone else on the forum? :-)

I was pretty much convinced I wouldn’t reach 70 but now, cancer notwithstanding, I think I’ll get to my 90s

monkey skipper said:

Bubblecar said:

Seems to have become a “given” in my self-narrative over the past couple years that I’m not going to last much longer.

Which at the age of 60, is realistic enough. But I’m entering the realm where the difference between reaching 80 and reaching 65 can be dependent on the fine tuning of what’s going on, and how I cope with it.

Having to move three times in the last two years knocked a lot out of me, and reminded me that the future is not secured. Combined with faltering enthusiasm, unresolved regrets and sorrows, and the likelihood of increasing health problems, gloom and doom often shove everything else out of my vision.

I remember coming across a little book my Mum was writing in, not long after my Dad’s death. She predicted her own imminent demise and various concerns about us “kids”. Feel very shameful now that I ascribed this to her usual melodramatics, as she was dead within the year, aged 64.

There are a number of forumites around my age posting here, and I’m wondering if this sense of impending doom is common to us all.

I thought you were going to get a mail order bride and have them look after you? Or did I confuse you with someone else on the forum? :-)

Mail order bride?

Don’t do it! It’ll only lead to alimony.

Bubblecar said:

Duck is a histrionic troll, ignore him.

Schizoids are indifferent to what other people think.

Bubblecar said:

Duck is a histrionic troll, ignore him.

Don’t say that. I was immensely enjoying seeing a new name and point of view on the forum.